Driving fast on loose gravel

White Supremacy and Quilting: Stupid things I say

2012-01-13T20:04:00.003-05:00

My new years resolution is to quit writing in my free time and start doing, making and watching. But I had to just get this one out. As part of this doing, making, creating year, I wanted to start a new quilt. I started thinking about patterns and colours I might like to work on. I started looking through art deco motifs, for something that could translate into a quilting pattern, and something

I've started a food blog.

2011-10-09T15:04:00.002-04:00

Seems as though I'm too happy to write here anymore. Nothing really to complain about, aside from my hammock branch getting cut down. I seem to have hung up the orgy-having, love-lust, wonder-struck dyke hat, for my - I can't wait to clean my windows, bake a chicken pot pie and hold hands with my love apron. I'm changed. And what do I have to say about myself? - "oh hey another happy day. Jee

Jess McCormack: work = worth = innocence

2011-10-04T12:02:00.004-04:00

I just wanted to take a quick opportunity to direct your gaze at the work of a friend of mine, Jess McCormack. Her recent work explores some of the interconnected threads between homelessness, employment, police violence, stigma and mental illness. It's powerful and thought provoking. There is so much here, it's hard to capture it all, so I suggest you check out the website for this series,

For Mohamed Harkat

2011-09-17T22:46:00.001-04:00

Security Certificates allow for detention of refugees and immigrants without charge or access to the evidence for national security reasons. Mohamed Harkat - Moe to his friends - is one of those men. As many of you may know, Mohamed Harkat lost in court on Dec. 9th, 2010 (one day before the 8th anniversary of his arrest) when his certificate was upheld. The decision was based on the lowest

Your tree, my hammock, a love story

2011-09-08T20:39:00.002-04:00

Dear City Forestry Department, Recently the city pruned the branches off the trees in my neighbourhood, including the tree in my front law. Now I realize you are experts in such matters. I realize you make decisions based on many factors, such as the health of the tree and safety of citizens. I know my tree has spots on it's leaves. I try to rake them up in order to prevent the disease from

Police seek help in locating Ottawa woman missing since July 4

2011-07-07T22:17:00.000-04:00

Police seek help in locating Ottawa woman missing since July 4 Ottawa police are searching for Meredith Westlake who has been missing since July 4.Photograph by: Image supplied, Ottawa Police ServicesOTTAWA — Ottawa police are asking for the public’s help in locating a missing 40-year-old Ottawa woman.Meredith Westlake was last seen on July 4 driving a green Toyota Sienna van in the Kingston

The streets of Philadelphia

2011-04-26T17:50:00.004-04:00

Joy and I just got back from an amazing weekend visit to Philadelphia, and I was blown away by the city. I have been to many cities around the world - and I have never loved one as much as I love this one. I feel like I could go on and on - from the amazing old architecture and rich history, to the great food, great people, green spaces, hot bikes, cool queers and fucking kick ass basketball...

And life is like a song (at last)

2011-02-20T23:20:00.000-05:00

See figure 3.

Then they come together again

2011-01-25T21:45:00.004-05:00

In June of 2009, I wrote a post called 'When things fall apart'. It's the title of a Pema Chodron book, which Jamine lent me. Here is the quote I used: "Things falling apart is a kind of testing and also a kind of healing. We think that the point is to pass the test or to overcome the problem, but the truth is that things don't really get solved. They come together and they fall apart. Then

Mark. Your. Calendars.

2011-01-14T11:42:00.003-05:00

"Ça fait 10 ans, ce soir, cette affaire" On January 29, Venus Envy is celebrating it's 10th anniversary. 10 years of sex positive workshops, sex toys, harnesses, binders, stuffers, pokers, and protectors;10 years of community organizing, with discussion panels, screenings, sex worker report launches, and erotic readings;10 years of guest speakers from around the world, including the likes

New York Times for January 4, 2011.

2011-01-11T23:07:00.001-05:00

I am not "a reader". Fiction rarely catches me, websites and blogs too, and boring non-ficton, never. But there are a few things I do love reading. I loved harry potter. I love Foucault. I loved the girl with dragon tattoo series. I loved Jean Vanier. I love reading descriptions of learning disabilities. I love reading the comments after CBC news stories about gay people and I really

A single man

2011-01-10T23:54:00.003-05:00

"you know the only thing that has made the whole thing worthwhile....it's been those few times when I've been able to truly connect with another human being" Recently, the Lively one emphatically insisted I watch the film, 'a single man'. She knows me better than I thought. I loved this film, every single inch of it. Now if only a lesbian love story could possess that much

Boarder control: Eyes wide shut

2011-01-04T21:47:00.003-05:00

"Love, even old love nestles itself into the space that two people hold each other with their eyes." These were my words, just a half dozen pages back, as I reflected on seeing HB again. reflected on what it felt like to feel love again, reflected on how I thought I had forgotten. And I have. ~~~ "You're heart is so closed M. you can't even look at me" she said to me last night.

Re: my mother

2010-12-25T23:04:00.001-05:00

Grant me the serenityTo accept the things I cannot change;Courage to change the things I can;And wisdom to know the difference.

living things are generally interesting

2010-12-24T00:31:00.001-05:00

Stu stu studio

2010-12-18T21:31:00.002-05:00

That is how it goes

2010-12-13T00:03:00.002-05:00

hmm. do people still read blogs? or this is a trend of the early to mid 2000's that has since been replaced by facebook, twitter and texting? Have we reached our share limit? do we know enough about enough? Have we shared enough on all of these platforms to feel heard? to not feel quite so alone? And as a blogger what do I want to share? My heart once sliced and splayed for all, now, after a

hold my hand, performance by Montreal artist Jessica McCorrmack

2010-11-30T22:11:00.002-05:00

ottawa craigslist ; personals ; missed connections hold my hand (City Hall Art Gallery) Date: 2010-11-30, 11:59AM EST Reply To This Post December, Saturday 4 & Sunday 5 I invite you to meet me in a public space and hold my hand. We will sit in City Hall Art Gallery and hold hands for 10 minutes (all details negotiated based on our mutual needs). Jess Location: City Hall Art Gallery

This winter's boudoir

2010-11-28T22:16:00.001-05:00

The 160 International Queersexual Film Festival

2010-11-17T22:23:00.003-05:00

I turned 31 this week. For the occasion I planned a film festival. The 160 International Queersexual film festival to be exact. although there were two screening rooms, only one ended up being used. the schedule was as follows: 7 pm - Edie & Thea: A Very Long Engagement (2009) 8:15 pm - Small Town Gay Bar (2007) 10 - Die Reise nach Kafiristan (Journey to Kiafiristan) (2001) followed by

The drive north along Jane

2010-11-01T22:19:00.001-04:00

I just read the Macleans story on the Rob Ford win (tucked at 7:30 pm I might add). I've seen the videos online, and I was as confused as everyone else on how multicultural gay hip artsy fartsy Toronto could vote this guy in. I guess its because that Toronto, didn't vote for him, but the rest of Toronto did. When I went to York, I drove there along Jane. If you live downtown Toronto I suggest you

Aslan-5

2010-10-31T20:37:00.000-04:00

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The UK is OK! part 2

2010-10-27T05:38:00.002-04:00

{Graeae Theatre} (The Burberry design house is next to my hotel. It's funny too see hundreds of skinny people in trench coats who all look alike, in one spot!)

The UK is OK! part 1

2010-10-25T16:28:00.011-04:00

Francey pants (how the French do...)

2010-10-25T15:53:00.004-04:00

"picturesque" "Highway pit stop" "gated community" "Strike" "shopping" "rush hour" "crosswalks" "government buildings" "urban green spaces" "sunsets" "Labour movement" "coffee and dessert" "woman's shoes" "airport food" (it's organic apricot yogurt in a glass jar) "airport waiting area"

Waterloo station

2010-10-23T18:00:00.008-04:00

Love never dies, does it? It was so good to see hb again. It reminded me what it feels like to really love someone. I think I had forgotten. But it also reminded me that love can only take you so far. And in my case, it seems to take me to the tube stop. ~~~~~~ I last saw hb at Oval station on New Years eve, going on almost three years ago. It was a heart wrenching break up. Tonight we

Spain, Barcelona, part 5

2010-10-21T18:23:00.001-04:00

Spain, Barcelona, part 4 (evening of lesiure defined)

2010-10-17T05:15:00.000-04:00

Spain, Barcelona, part 3

2010-10-16T13:18:00.001-04:00

Spain, Barcelona part 2

2010-10-15T12:20:00.002-04:00

Spain, Barcelona, part 1

2010-10-13T12:09:00.001-04:00

Spain, Sitges

2010-10-13T12:05:00.001-04:00

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France, Avingon

2010-10-13T11:59:00.001-04:00

Dear Megan,

2010-10-03T00:38:00.000-04:00

happy happy happy birthday Ms. Butcher, I'm so very happy you are alive. Xo MC.

On disability, drinking whisky, and the casual search of a good gay grown-up woman

2010-09-24T23:43:00.100-04:00

PREFACE I have an invisable disability. I am dyslexic. and I know that many in my disbaility activist communities, view me, potentually as not disabled enough. too prividged to take on the title. so Tonight, I will grant you access to my euthentically, access to my unadapted self. this is what my writing looks like sans spell check. Sans editing. sans hours of rewriting and revisiting. I give

I am at good life

2010-09-09T21:37:00.001-04:00

YouTube Video

A nice place to visit

2010-09-06T20:11:00.003-04:00

I'm "from" Nova Scotia. In that I spent my school-aged years there. And I'm proud to say it when people ask, although I make sure to add a quick jab about how it's a nice place to visit, but not so great to grow up in. It doesn't feel like "home" anymore and visiting my parents is often stressful, and full of feeling not quite myself. Make that - nothing remotely like myself. But

Something Old, Something New

2010-09-02T09:06:00.000-04:00

Something Old Carey Dodge came to visit this week. I met him 10 years ago, the summer I was Super Beth. Him and I were inseparable that summer. We took care of a group of 7 year olds at a day camp, and whenever we were not lying under trees telling stories or playing in public pools, or painting our bodies and doing cartwheels, we were discovering every inch of Montreal by bike in the warm

Something Borrowed, Something Blue

2010-08-26T01:47:00.129-04:00

Something Borrowed The wedding invitation came in the form of a text and a chat. The Gay Deaf wedding was as casual as the invitations, and the simplicity and the sweetness of it all made me so very happy. It poured. They stood under a big tree in their back yard, and we stood huddled under umbrellas. The entire event was conducted in four languages, ASL, English LSQ and French. And when a

Morning Commute: Uganda

2010-08-24T07:00:00.005-04:00

(your preachy titles and sense of entitlement are annoying, but the walk is beautiful)

Morning commute: Zürich

2010-08-23T07:00:00.000-04:00

Morning Commute: Toronto

2010-08-22T07:00:00.001-04:00

Morning Commute: South Pole

2010-08-21T00:02:00.001-04:00

Morning Commute: Paris

2010-08-20T07:00:00.001-04:00

Morning Commute: Tokyo

2010-08-19T07:00:00.002-04:00

Morning Commute: Dehli

2010-08-17T23:31:00.007-04:00

Starting today, your hump day, I give you a week of daily commutes....

Down here

2010-08-15T22:28:00.088-04:00

I've been painting. Nothing overly original or that different from countless other brightly coloured paintings I've made before - but thankfully I don't have those kinds of expectations. I don't paint often. but when I do, it is because I have to. I paint, typically, when I need to focus. And by focus, what I really mean is hide. Hide from my thoughts, and my reflection and from my life

Peachie Queen

2010-08-05T22:24:00.010-04:00

When The Tailor asked me awhile ago, if I was interested in becoming a sex educator at VE, I didn't really have to think about it much, before quickly replying, "yes!". I love VE, I love teaching and I love sex - it seemed like the perfect fit. Training, consists of attending workshops and reading and preparing with the tried and tested methods they've got in the bag. Sounded good. So in

Power outage

2010-08-04T23:38:00.003-04:00

It's funny, beacause normally I'm pretty comfortable being alone. But for as used to being alone as I am, being in this dark silent house tonight, makes me wish there were people to share in the stillness. - Posted using BlogPress from my iPhone

The attack of the killer Adirondack chickens

2010-08-02T21:10:00.002-04:00

YouTube Video YouTube Video Despite the multiple attacks, which granted, I probably deserved, I fell in love with chickens this weekend. And roosters are the new black.

Cleaning

2010-07-27T22:53:00.012-04:00

I have been letting go. I have been making room. I have been throwing out. I've pulled out the piles of paper scrapes and opened mail and dissected them into the must haves and have nots. I've been cleaning off the layers of dust and dirt that have accumulated in corners and on typewriters and on window sills. It's been a task I have been harbouring for awhile. Thinking and lamenting about

Something old, something new

2010-07-27T15:51:00.005-04:00

Wonderful weekends are...

2010-07-20T00:41:00.002-04:00

YouTube Video ....filled with dancing and kids in batman costumes and love parties and friends who say all the right things at all the right moments and short black dresses and new shoes and heirloom beets and beautiful smiles and ice cream and late night deck dinners and the taste of summer sweat and day dreams about fleets of antique cars driving through the

Lisa Bufano, Mentally fine. Very fine.

2010-07-16T10:12:00.003-04:00

“Is that a person?” “It’s a she” “she?” “Tell us about her!” “But is she handicap?.... I meant.... (giggle)” “Mentally fine though?” “Born that way?” “Did she come up with that idea?” “I would be afraid I would fall down”

The perfect fit

2010-07-14T01:04:00.062-04:00

Recently Black M and I were shopping and she noted, despairingly, the sad reality of "plus size" fashion while I searched desperately for a decent purchase. Ugly, out of date, matronly, polyester are all words I would use - for starters. I have often lamented how my style is nothing close to what I envision, because the clothes I desire are not made past size 10. I'm sure many of you under size

13 hours of her

2010-07-12T22:07:00.003-04:00

Witness

2010-06-30T00:57:00.004-04:00

I am reminded of the importance of being a witness. Of the power of listening. The power of being constantly, ready and willing to learn. I am constantly humbled by the very small and minute sliver of life that I do understand, even when I think I understand so much. Sometimes, all that I do not understand, causes me to feel less than, inadequate, missing. If I do not understand, how will I know

Shame

2010-06-28T22:27:00.007-04:00

"We, Justin Giovannetti and Lex Gill, are both able and willing to testify in front of a court of law, tribunal or hearing to attest to the validity of these statements. What follows is a list, as detailed as we can make it in a blog post, of what we saw and heard. People were held for up to 35 hours with a single meal. None seemed to have received food more

Solidarity

2010-06-27T21:56:00.027-04:00

I didn't go to Toronto, but I am in solidarity with all those strong, vibrant, brave people who did. Toronto was transformed into a Police state this weekend, and the arrest toll is still mounting at 650 last report. People are being kept in cages, handcuffed and bolted to the ground. Find more videos like this on 12160.org I have been following the Toronto Media Coop's Coverage as well

Dyke Porn

2010-06-23T00:27:00.000-04:00

an ode to my touque

2010-06-22T00:40:00.002-04:00

My grandfather always said that everything must have it's place, and you must return it there once you are done using it. I woke up last night worried I didn't know where my touque was. It's hot out, first day of summer in fact. but I have an attachment to my touque. When I drove to Chicago, my keys and my touque were what I quick-checked, whenever I left the car for more then a

Sartorialist summer wedding attire research

2010-06-19T22:54:00.000-04:00

hilarious

2010-06-12T11:20:00.002-04:00

Today's horoscope: Although you are internally wired for intense situations, today's curious Gemini New Moon in your 8th House of Intimacy can be difficult for your friends to handle, especially if you want to talk about things that they would rather not discuss. Try a more laid-back approach so your desire for meaningful interactions doesn't send others running for safer emotional spaces.

Wicked good at Westfest this weekend

2010-06-07T22:35:00.001-04:00

Here is just a shameless plug for some great writers and performance artists I know who will be at Westfest this Saturday. In particular make sure to check out Cara Tierney, Natalie Fournier, Bill Brown and Sheila James! Performance Artists Saturday June 12th, 2010 - Roaming Richmond Road TIME Cara Tierney12:00 - 4:00 PM Theo Pelmus12:00 - 4:00 PM Cindy Baker12:00 - 4:00 PM Natalie Fournier12:

Filed away

2010-05-30T22:15:00.000-04:00

Well the photo essay of the two week drive to Chicago, and the Great Lake Swimmer it made me, has been indefinitely halted as the fancy phone device, which held all those pictures and videos, fell in body of water, ironically it seems. Tonight, while trying to find the licence plates for the car, that died in Michigan, I came across my very important file-o-dex. It's small, letter sized and

Great Lake Swimmer, day 3

2010-05-16T22:19:00.004-04:00

Location: Madison WI

Great Lake Swimmer, Day 2

2010-05-14T23:17:00.006-04:00

YouTube VideoThe Pinery Provincial park, 5 am YouTube Video Sarnia, Ont, 5:30 am YouTube Video Muskegon, MI YouTube Video YouTube Video Madison WI Location: Sarnia * Port Huron *

Great Lake Swimmer, Day 1

2010-05-14T08:57:00.005-04:00

YouTube Video YouTube Video - Posted using BlogPress from my iPhone Location:Guelph • Stratsford • Lake Huron

thanks, but no thanks

2010-05-01T03:43:00.004-04:00

In case you haven't noticed, I'm not a fan of having to define myself as either femme or butch. and I tire of the way, you only have eyes for one or the other. I own a binder and a corset thank you very much. but no thanks. my electric drill is stored next to my lap weaving set, a shelf over from to my tent (which I use to camp in by myself, and yes, I know how to make a damn good fire )

The black cat on my street

2010-04-21T22:53:00.002-04:00

Tonight I sat on my back porch, drinking a beer in honour of my disability and policy paper being done. It was a cool night, and almost silent. The neighbourhood kids were asleep and all you could hear was a newspaper drifting across the street and the soft patter of the occasional dog walker. As I sat there I thought about how I hope I don't have to move in September, how much I love my home,

hey kido

2010-04-15T22:27:00.000-04:00

I want a kid. period. I don't want a kid for the sake of "owning", "moulding" or "creating" something/someone. I don't want a mini-me, or symbolic creation of the blending of two people. I don't need a miniature version of myself to dress up and show off. and I do not want a kid so that I may have the honour of the magical process of pushing a human out of my vagina. But I do want to share my

It's been a year since last year

2010-04-12T16:49:00.001-04:00

Sometimes, time flies.

Silly scarf question

2010-04-07T22:42:00.000-04:00

So a few weeks ago I posed a question to some of my more organized femmes, about what to do about scarves. You see I have Many MANY scarves. and up until a few hours ago, they were kept in a mismanged basket. A basket that was often overflowing, and collecting spare socks and not really giving me the full spectrum of possibilities, when and how I needed them. My request was detailed. I needed

Re: thunder thighs

2010-04-04T00:42:00.003-04:00

Dear Queens U student, I see by my stats collector data that you found my blog by searching the phrase: "lose thunder thighs quickly". I hope you changed your mind. Sincerely, Mae Callen

Tender Forever

2010-03-31T09:54:00.003-04:00

So the world is depressing me, but Tender Forever is getting me out of bed.

The real waste of taxpayer’s money

2010-03-30T18:50:00.007-04:00

There have been a few budget related announcements made this week, that have got me fired up about the real waste of tax payers money. The Special Diet Allowance in Ontario- which is an allowance for people who live way below the poverty rate, and who are disabled and sick, so that they may buy things like vegetables, fiber and protein, was cut. Human rights commission offices in Toronto

Thunder thighs

2010-03-21T18:08:00.006-04:00

Recently I have been thinking about how insanly attracted I am to thighs. Thunder thighs. Thighs that meet in the middle when you are standing stright. Thighs that touch and rub together. Thighs that expand as they go up from the knee. Big thick jucy thighs you can grab onto. Thighs you can suck on. I guess the trend these days are high waists and tight leggings and short skirts, so now that the

as is

2010-03-17T02:16:00.003-04:00

Before I came to Toronto, I went back to therapy. I learned a lot. And since then I haven't really thought about the stuff I learned about myself. One of the things was that I was going to try to find my dimmer switch. That I was going to throw in the towel on the big grand gestures and just be. Myself. And kind of like letting a good wine age, I shelved that knowledge and forgot about it. Not

THE BEST THING ON THE INTERNET RIGHT NOW. and maybe ever.

2010-03-10T23:24:00.001-05:00

Props to Feral Geographer who got this from someone named Jacqui, who posted it on a social media place of worship. so props to all of them too. yeeeeah.

PART 4: 4 days, 4 feminists, 3 New York City boroughs, 2 crutches and 1 wheelchair

2010-03-03T23:27:00.003-05:00

What I have focused on here so far are the negative, yet realistic aspects of my trip. But by claiming them, writing them down, documenting them I have also perhaps left out or overshadowed the joy, the experience, the laughter, the fun, and the bonding that happened. For we were resilient, and the experience as a whole was wonderful and memorable. I remember sitting in a cab at 4 am laughing

PART 3: 4 days, 4 feminists, 3 New York City boroughs, 2 crutches and 1 wheelchair

2010-03-02T23:43:00.003-05:00

“One student fare please” I asked the woman behind the desk at the Brooklyn Museum. “For you it will be $1.75, for your friends $6.00, if they have a student ID” She replied. $1.75 was not the student rate, it was the rate for visitors with disabilities. Having worked in museum access, I was conflicted. I had fought for years to develop a pricing policy for visitors with

Art (W)interlude

2010-03-01T20:48:00.001-05:00

Suck your thick winter thighs (I want to) Mixed media on Paper approx 13" x 13" March 2010, Toronto

PART 2: 4 days, 4 feminists, 3 New York City boroughs, 2 crutches and 1 wheelchair

2010-02-28T13:56:00.002-05:00

In reflecting this way it is important to add that through out it all I was surrounded by a caring wonderful supportive understanding family – friends who did not intentionally make me feel these things and worked so hard to make sure I didn’t. But they were in all senses taking care of me, and although at times I needed it, I didn’t like it. The feelings that came from within me came from my

PART 1: 4 days, 4 feminists, 3 New York City boroughs, 2 crutches and 1 wheelchair

2010-02-25T20:26:00.004-05:00

On the first Monday evening of reading week, I fell on a patch of ice outside of my Ottawa home. I felt some of the worst pain I have ever felt in my life. Every part of my right foot and ankle were sprained and touching any part of it would result in blood curdling pain. My foot swelled to the size of a pomelo and walking was not even a remote option. On Thursday, I went to New York City. 3 of

Elle fashionista

2010-02-15T00:27:00.012-05:00

Happiness is walking and wandering Toronto with Black M all weekend. Finding ribbion shops of striped blue and white and red and white and felted strips of yellow hued chartreuse - colours that will whirl around in your soul, singing when you think of them. Only to then find a vintage wool blend black and white gingam Parisian blouse with a thick neck tie - that fits. Only to then find a pair

On rom coms and heart hibernating and Manhattan

2010-02-09T03:12:00.005-05:00

Dear Diane Keaton, I love you. I loved you in Woody Allen's Annie Hall and I love you even more in his 1979 high contrast black and white, Manhattan. I love your popped collars buttoned to the top and your tight blazers and your wide dress pants. I love your barettes and your frizzy crimped hair. I love the way you say "bullshit" when standing in the MoMA, and sling your arms over a

Motor City Marvel

2010-02-03T00:49:00.002-05:00

Came across this artistic genius, wanted to share... "ICE HOUSE DETROIT IS AN ARCHITECTURAL INSTALLATION AND SOCIAL CHANGE PROJECT CURRENTLY TAKING PLACE IN DETROIT. PHOTOGRAPHER GREGORY HOLM AND ARCHITECT, MATTHEW RADUNE WILL USE ONE OF 20,000 ABANDONED HOUSES AND FREEZE IT IN SOLID ICE TO REFERENCE THE CONTEMPORARY URBAN CONDITIONS IN THE CITY AND BEYOND." Check out the project blog

What's new...

2010-02-01T23:49:00.004-05:00

A fierce Vogue battle at the AGO My own fierce Vogueness A day long Symposium on Disability, Sexuality and Global perspectives Being incouraged and motivated by every word out of Eli Clare's mouth The sad realization that the world is not eveloving in social consciouness about disability at the same rate I am Learning that some people with "Global Perspectives", might

Ocean on our side / Strength from within

2010-01-25T10:56:00.002-05:00

Strength From Within | by Rae Spoon Sailors have always known that you can’t fight the wind. You can’t fight the water with strength from within. Strength from within. Strength from within. We’ve gotta, we’ve gotta, we’ve gotta find A way to get the ocean on our side. Your Grandfather’s still at the bottom of the coal mine Counting the rocks between him and making it out alive. Would you

RESET

2010-01-19T03:11:00.002-05:00

The week before my job ended I came home hysterical. I stood at the back door and let my body fall into the friendly giant, while I poured my self out, unable to move from the open doorway. Frozen in anguish and fatigue and sadness. The day before my job ended, a Thursday, I went back to therapy. I was crying, sobbing and overwhelmed. Friday my job ended. Saturday, I sat in my living room, alone,

Now, Get Going and Dance with Me!

2010-01-14T11:03:00.001-05:00

Top 5 things I'm thinking about right now

2010-01-12T22:16:00.010-05:00

Britain's Top Missing Model Midget Stripping PABBIS Sweet Valley High The use of the cane/walking sticks in indicating both the high status of the gentleman and at the same time the undesirable stigma of disability.

I'm a hardcore Kids in the Hall Geek

2010-01-11T22:40:00.004-05:00

I went to the CBC today. I watched the Kids in the Hall in a pre-screening for their new TV show. I went by myself. I laughed. I cried. I tweeted. "Hi My Name is Mae Callen, and I'm a hardcore Kids in the Hall geek"

Well... that was nice while it lasted.

2010-01-08T01:41:00.000-05:00

Now that all of the syllabi have been assigned, the deadlines established and the 3 foot high reading pile made, "Time" will be hence forth a figment of my imagination.

happiness is having time

2010-01-07T01:22:00.002-05:00

One of the things I love about being a student is the time. The time to wake up. The time to make coffee and eat breakfast, sitting down. The time to go for a swim. and a sauna. The time to make granola, and salads, and homemade meals. The time to clean my clothes, and put them away. The time to read, and write, and edit. With still time left to make and eat dinner. with friends. and even left

domesticus extraordinarius

2010-01-04T22:42:00.006-05:00

After a 9 hour drive on a snow covered 401 from Ottawa to Toronto, I am here. Moved. Today I have: Woke up in a new bed and a new city Found out where my 11 am Law class is tomorrow Found coffee and a crossiant Did one round of grocery shopping at a No Frills on Bloor Unpacked my 3 months worth of contents from my salt covered car, up 8 floors and through 5 doors in 6 trips.

Gay Movies to see in 2010

2010-01-02T23:07:00.002-05:00

Morocco (1930) Marlene Dietrich Queen Chirstina (1933) Greta Garbo Young Man with a Horn, (1950) Kurt Douglas, Doris Day and Lauren Bacall Calamity Jane (1953) Doris Day Walk on the Wild Side (1962) Barbara Stanwyck, Jane Fonda The Boys in the Band (1970) The Hunger (1983) Catherine Deneuve, David Bowie and Susan Sarandon The Adventures of Priscilla, Queen of the Dessert (1994) Guy Pearce Die

Notes on New Years Resolutions

2010-01-02T01:45:00.005-05:00

"You know Hawkeye, I think it's going to be a good year." "Oh yeah?" She says to me "Yep. Not awesome or life shattering, but not terrible and strewn with heartache and pain either. It's going to be chill. Normal. Maybe even boring. Two Thousand and Zen." "I've been waiting to hear the catchy coin phrase prediction for this year. I like it." "Yep Two Thousand and Zen. No big girl drama, no

Two Thousand and Fuck

2010-01-01T19:49:00.015-05:00

Last year on New Year's Eve the motto was that this year was going to be Two Thousand and Fine. And certianly if last year's hot hallway mackin' with the butcher was any indication, then it should of been one hellava year. But for many people it more quickly got titled Two Thousand and Fuck. And for good reason. For a lot of the people I know, myself included, our worlds got flipped on their

Notes on NYE 2009

2010-01-01T18:10:00.005-05:00

The Best: Robert's Daughter in that dress The Butcher in those boots The Tourist in that tie The Tailor in that red ribbon Speak easy in those red heels KC in that bra, I mean shirt. No I mean bra Merry L in (and out) of those blue tights Did I mention Robert's Daughter in that dress? The dancing, bum touching and grinding with hotties combo meal deal When there was a room of wonderful people to